My publication ‘Beyond Tonight’

My publication ‘Beyond Tonight’ (my name is Tuuli Jugar) is available to purchase on Amazon. It features also poems I have published here.

FIRE FIGHT

I woke up another night

After having a fire fight

My dolphin-patterned blanket

Was so abused exhausted

After messed about with and dirty

My lighter with matches was flirty

Produced a nice fire

This ruined the upper layer

Of one side of a dolphin

Though I wanted to win

Not to let this happen more

Wanted to set down my score

Woke up said never again

I will play with matches ten

Never let my under mind

Take in such similar kind

Slavery from lighter and match

Slavery that burns leaves a patch

In my nice dolphin blanket Autumn/Winter 2017/2018

ACCIDENT

New face and new make-up
A secretly taken cup
Yesterday’s sleepover
Ride home with land rover
Flight of a butterfly
Can’t take away high
Camera with lens blue
Own bright selfie sent through
Famously famous Skype
Hold tight and windscreen wipe
Make-up messed

Someone crossed
Over the street pitch dark
Where was no single light spark
Unknown
Your own
Unimportance
At a single glance

Autumn 2017

I WANT TO SIT

Everything earthly sounds so trivial
Does not matter really at all at all
All around me is so boring usual
I feel I am over above it all

Egoless state so huge overwhelming
It’s so powerful so strong so hurting
I’ve knowledge overview of everything
It strikes me and makes me feel like flying

It is scary I do not want to eat
I do not want to drink and not to sleep
Trying to find a spot not to defeat
The main principle of on the ground to sit

I am frantic my thoughts are running fast
How am I gonna get past it at last

Spring 2017

THE CORE

Raindrops falling from skies heavy

Wind making dirty puddles wavy

It is not time for sun yet

Clouds up there are stuck and set

Grey houses by a boring street

Windows shut to keep in heat

Shops in usual business

Due to weather there people less

A bus ride away city centre

Wait five minutes for a chatter

Hustle-bustle can be found down there

Has looked after it the major

Huge extremes of the city

Make feel a bit of pity

Around a corner a flower bed

Among weeds is a single flower red

April 2018

HOLY TRINITY

Oh my god my heart is sinking
What what else could I be thinking
A couple of nightmares here sitting
Together music are playing

Annoyance turned itself around
That’s due to a very nice sound
I am moving my arms my chest
Waving gestures from right to left

I can feel the sense of unity
This is local holy trinity

Spring 2017

PEACE PIPES

One more step ahead forward now to take

For its one but not only this this sake

One step ahead and two three or four back

So have to carry heavy soldier’s sack

Weapons in pockets rations for journey

Every outlook outcome will be turning

Every evening different from morning

Predictions never true will be coming

A way backwards to long gone childhood

Complexity is only half way through

Simplicity is in the end and start

Heavy load on the back and easy heart

Knowledge of importance in the mind lays

Words of peace wisdom true and honest says

Little smart smart child honestly truthfully

So an elder of own nation calmly

Peace pipes handed among members around

Not only ritual but unity sound

Which can’t be put in sentences in mouths

No words in the middle never have been found

The sense of time and the current moment

Downhill with fast fast development went

Nothing lasts forever

As never lasts fever

Passer-bys forget lie

Endless endless journey

Two opposites meeting

In eternity

In Zen

January/February 2018

CHESHIRE CAT

Cheshire cat is up on a tree

Its mouth is deeply grinny

Its head’s circumference

Gives it the highest potence

Let it have a smile at every side

Impossible it is that to hide

Forever vision forever sound

Cannot help that its head round

Can be said so silly so weird

Everyone who’s seen it has reared

Raw images raw past

All this has been cast

In Cheshire cat’s eyes truth lies

Relax look down and smile

Autumn 2017

UNSKILLED

My first time to be a tutor
So far been a simple author
They say who is skilled does things
And who is not teaches something
I am flexible and give free hands
I tell their choice to explore mind lands
Dig deep in meanings in surroundings
Rhyme up all their possible findings

Summer 2018

INVISIBLE MESSAGE

Doesn’t really matter that am here writing
Doesn’t really matter what’s in the message
I’m just keeping energy flowing
That’s in my story the first passage

If you very want you can take it
If you really want you can leave it
If you want you can make your own choice
All I ask don’t let me waste my voice

I don’t want to repeat anything

Spring 2017

EVER NEVER

My dad was never ever to see
To hear listen and read
My rhymes my rhythms my sounds
He never ever out really found
Where my true strengths lie
He never ever tried
To listen me when I young
When I out had sung
He put in me poetry seed
But he never ever tried to feed
My flight in rhythms rhymes
Music songs field fine
He never ever saw this side of me
My flight started only when had been end of his

Summer 2018